Stop beating yourself

Do you beat yourself down because you don't pray enough, fast enough or even read your bible enough ? Do you feel like a "christian failure" and that you are not measuring up? Well this devotional is not to say that it's ok to not pray more, fast more or read your bible more. But its to give you an answer as to why you may feel that way. 

First of all, through my own experience when i would feel like that and felt like a bad christian, a indiscipline servant of God. I used to condemn myself SO much, I used to start my campaign of promises to God, that i would pray more, fast more and read more. Only to return to my cycle of self-condemnation for not fulfilling my promises the following week. As time went by, I grew in frustration in which in return it was killing my joy, but in the middle of this confusing time. I also had a burning fire in my soul to chase after God and be tramp by HIS presence. That's why, I have always said "you must have something burning SO deep inside of you, than when all else turns off or fails you, that turns on". 

As I struggle, but at the same time hunger more for God. The Lord finally revealed to me His paternity, see, most christians only know of God as savior, But not many have allowed themselves to know hims as "Father God" and then thats when it hit me "God is not waiting to convict me, persecute me or even waiting for me to fail to beat on me". That's when i though about my own fatherhood towards my own children. I never beat them down when they fail, I never leave them alone, I never demand anything that I know is far from their reach and I realized that my Father God feels the same towards me as his beloved son and i also realize  that my self-condemnation only came from me not knowing God as Father-God, It also came from comparing myself to other believers (who talk so much about their spirituality) only to find out that God has a unique-personal plan with every believer. 

Furthermore, I also realize that it comes from failing to recognized God's mercy, grace, love and promises. You must understand something; God is not going to judge you over one day or even a bad month. But at the end he will judge you over your lifetime. Because the key is, how will you finish your race. Once that understood, you will stop beating yourself up for a bad day, a bad month or even a bad year. 

So in conclusion, Lift your head up and keep your eyes fix on Jesus. The author and consumer of your faith. Noticed what i said ? "The AUTHOR" meaning he's already written you a way out of any situation that you may be going through. 

Love, 

Pastor

"please leave me your thoughts"